This journal entry was written early last month, while I was still living in Istanbul. Whenever I read it I feel happy and content with the steps I’ve taken in order to come to terms with the things that happened to me during the last year. It always puts a smile on my face…
Yesterday night I went to a great concert by the band The XX, and I felt completely exhilarated and so happy. It was an amazing feeling! I smiled for hours on end afterwards. I’m not really sure how it happened or why at this time, but I want to embrace it and nurture the happiness that I felt last night. I can’t remember when was the last time I felt so genuinely happy. I will take this as a positive sign. I’ve made such huge steps in the past months that I can be proud of.
There are some occasional setbacks of course, moments of melancholy and sweet sadness, but I will learn to embrace that too. It’s like a giant weight has been taken off my shoulders and now I am free to do whatever I want and love. Maybe this concert was just a trigger of the happiness that has been slowly growing inside of me and now I can finally enjoy it.
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